I can see why you call yourself Stuck. You seem to have a hard time being decisive. You say you usually see the gray and not black and white. Those types of people have hard time making decisions. They can never just do, but always have to keep going back and forth with asking others what they should do, getting all opinions over and over and over. They think one opinion sounds good for the day or week.. Try that for awhile.. Then panic that it isn't working, and come back for a new fresh opinion. Back and forth... Back and forth...
All the while not realizing that they simply won't make up their mind. They view people that are decisive as "black and white or stubborn and such......... People that are black and white view "gray" as "lazy or laid back or undecisive and it drives the black and white crazy as the relationship develops...
