WAH from chaos to peace.

[bluerain]

Im having a little bit of a hard time. He is on the other side of the country. I would really like to see him. I feel like we could be making more meaningful progress. I find that Im very sensitive to what he does. If he doesnt call or text I wonder if hes having second thoughts. I dont ever let onto that, but it does go through my mind. Im trying to not get ahead of myself, but this all seems so tenuous.

He is also going to be visiting his family for the 4th of july in boston, they are all going to meet up there from canada and maine. Im not sure that they know that we are going to try again. I like to think that they will be supportive, but his Mother was very "You need to do what makes you happy, son" as if we were a couple that had just been dating for 2 years, No, we had a marriage, a family, for nearly 10 years! She kept his A a secret from his whole family and didnt tell them what had really happened until H had already moved to Va. I always wondered what they thought happened, I had an A, I was a nagging terrible woman? These are people I loved, and who told me that they loved me! Again, I need to not get ahead of myself!

I agree that there will probably be a honeymoon period, Im not sure how you would keep from having a hopless attitude in that case. Its kind of scary!