Mike... Bad choice of words, w/no back-up explanation...
Hurl=reaction to fear=similar situations=WTF am I doing?
My D18's Dad and I D'd when she was 2. He was a raging alcoholic. I was very young, and got out quick. Her entire life we dealt with him mis-treating her, her visitation schedule, her fearful of going there, attorney's sucking the life out of our cash reserves, and FAILING to make things better (legally). THAT is where the fear comes from.
Plus, my boys adore their Dad, as do I and D18. Fear comes from not having him, my boys not having him as present as he is now. I can't do it to them. D18 will always have a R with him, as they'll handle it amongst themselves.
I would be shattered, but would eventually heal, I guess. I will not shatter my little boys' lives by delivering news like this, a new lifestyle like this, etc... They saw what their sister went through. They saw our pain.
That's where the hurl comes from. The reality that he might never show a desire to look back.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
