Trying to detach from the madness!

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Going to try to detach as much as I possibly can.

1. No more responding to give baby a kiss texts. They only are for his benefit and manipulation. He wants to kiss baby, he can kiss her himself.
2. The only texts I will respond to are ones asking how she is. My answers will be short and to the point. If he engages beyond that..I won't respond.
3. Find things to keep me busier and out of the house especially on the weekends. Money is so darn tight..that will be tough.


He will not like this at all. He will get very angry with his words and accuse me of keeping him from baby and being childish (thats his new favorite word).

I looked for Father's Day cards yesterday. I didn't get one. It was hard to find a card that wasn't a complete lie. Part of me doesn't even want to get him a card. She has no clue so it would be from me. If anything, we may make one.

Yesterday MIL called and said how great exh sounded this week after his episode on the weekend and said I needed to keep praying for him. He may be turning a corner. I ended up telling her that I hear through the grapvine that he is involved with a married woman. She accused me of gossip and that it couldn't be true. He told her he was interested in a woman with three kids and that I am jealous, mean, and vindictive. I got mad and told her she needed to get off the denial train and see what her son is doing. Made my excuse and got off the phone. She is another that will go to VM. His sister also text'd me. She lives locally and before the weekend she hadn't seen baby since Xmas. Now she is texting and wanting to spend some time together so baby can know her auntie. Yuck.

I am sick of hurting. Next month will be one year since I kicked him out. I fully expected to be farther along than this.