Sandi thank you for responding to me. I have to say that after all that I said about my xh, for some reason I can not get angry at him or stay angry at him anyway. I feel sorry for him. I wish I could help him. I saw at times the inner child in him. Sometimes he would come up behind me and hug me and act all wishy washy...for no reason. THIS is the man I miss. Then there have been times that he could have knocked me out if I had been a man. He said several times that I make him madder than anybody he ever knew. He said several times, after he left, that he wanted a simple life. Sandi, my son and I put xh on a pedistol. We thought he was OUR hero. We thought he knew everything and my son still does. It was just us 3 against the world. That is how we felt. Now he has left us to fend for ourselves and we are crushed. Thats how we see it. I am quickly learning I can take care of myself and my family without him. Not my choice but he wants it that way. Sandi, I know this new girl is in control of him, but will it last? Because when I met my xh he pampered me to no end. He even promised my aunt, whom I lived with, things he would do for her. Still to this day has not lived up to his promise. I contolled him bigtime. I threatened to leave him once and he freaked, (this was before we married). He got down on his kness and begged, I mean BEGGED and cried for me not to leave him. I can see him doing this with her. It's like he is that young man I met years ago. I even told me, whatever the new gf wanted she was going to get. He has even discussed having kids with her, said he would like to have twin girls. Sanid, my xh never wanted anymore kids...this is not HIM. From what I hear this is part of the MLC. I dont know though.
***I have to end for now, I will pick up in a bit.***
