Mindblank #4 - Can I borrow some meds?

[mindfull]

COACH:

This was incredibly hard. This list could be 10x the size of it now. F*ck.

I feel rejection when my H comes to bed, and turns over to go to sleep w/out a kiss, a hug, or anything else.

I feel rejection when my H doesn’t greet me w/warmth (upon return from out of town), as he does our children.

I feel rejection when my H doesn’t pay ANY compliments to me (physically). (He used to.)

I feel rejection when my H forwards emails of a semi-sexual nature to others, when he shows no interest in anything of a sexual nature at home.

I feel rejection when my H makes excuses to not do something alone with me.

I feel rejection when my H “gives up” on our common friends. It makes me feel like he’s rejecting our marital history.

I feel rejection every time I change in my bathroom, knowing it’s awkward now to change in front of him.

I feel rejection every time I remember it’s been two years since he told me he has no desire for me.

I feel rejection when my H looks at me w/those blank eyes.

I feel rejection every day he continues to work out of town, and not hire someone to do his job, because he’s rejecting being at home with us.

I feel rejection every time one of my friends makes a joke about their H’s and their “annoying” over-abundant sexual desire.

I feel rejection is the core of my being right now.