Mindblank #4 - Can I borrow some meds?

[mindfull]

God! Will you guys stop making me cry!?!?! My kids are going to think I've freaked!

Coach... Gosh...

I know that scene well... I'm DEFINITELY in his "fine" place.

The specific changes are working for HIM, because I'm not bothering him w/R talk. I'm not freaking out about being rejected. I'm not sobbing and saying I'm sorry. I'm not showering him w/gifts and memory books. He would say he LOVES the changes in me.

I like them, as well. But, they are fake. They only work for me because we are on a more emotionally even keel WHEN TOGETHER. They do NOT work for me, ALSO, because I don't feel productive in our R. I feel devalued, used, disrespected, UNWORTHY.

I really like what you've asked in the way of the question... I feel rejected when... I'm going to work on that alone.

Damn tears.

Thank you so much for coming over here.