I have only posted once but i've followed a bit of your sitch. I hope you don't mind my input but if so please disregard, ok.
As far as your stand goes it sounds like feelings haven't changed a lot just the dynamics concerning upcoming decisions. Isn't that normal? I only ask that because the meltdown sounds normal considering...
I would suggest that you ask yourself how you would take the next part of this journey if you knew the outcome. If you knew there would be a reconciliation would you go about your business the same way as if there wasn't going to be one? Can you stand up for yourself and yet give in and compromise?
These are the hardest times and decisions because we seem to base them on "what ifs". If this then that but if H does this then that....
Like your early posts on this thread suggest, moral integrity.
I wish you the best and ask you to remember that our futures are not written for us to read, but live and remember later.
cire
Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
