he was back, i think

[bluerain]

Mdoodles, I spent almost 10 years financially dependant on my H. So I know exactly what I am say when I say Who cares what he does. You cant count on him, hes proven that. Now you have to figure out what you will do without him.

It is a struggle. But you gotta go what you gotta do. I have been working my butt off for the last year and a half to get to a place where I am financially independant, I went from being a full time student to putting in applications to everyone that would take them. You can get help with daycare, and assistance finding a job from almost every state, Im sure that NY isnt different.

Im not saying that you get ready to be D, I am saying that you need to be prepared for that IF scenario.

I think that now you need to be really gearing yourself up for what your going to do without him, and not waste time and energy with worry about what hes going to do.