If by in it to win it you mean to become the best you can be that is fabulous. If you mean getting your spouse back at any cost you may very well end up with the booby prize. Be ever mindful of your goals.

Kissak - You know he hasn't changed. He is still yanking your chain any way he can. Find a way to keep your head above water and ignore his obvious tactics. He sucks you in, tires of it and then drops you. Lather.Rinse.Repeat. Stop allowing him to engage you. It isn't worth your time.

If he ever gets his collective $hit together and approaches you, you will know without a doubt that he has changed. Until that day continue to control what you can {which is yourself and your actions} Keep moving forward. Keep smiling.

Have a lovely time on your vacay. Relax and rejuvenate your spirit.

Don't forget to breathe.
*hugs*
~ swl

Look not mournfully into the past. It comes not back again. Wisely improve the present. It is thine. Go forth to meet the shadowy future, without fear. {Henry Wadsworth Longfellow}