It is amazing how much different my outlook is when I actually get sleep and eat. It takes a special kind of stupid to forget to eat. smile So I'm making taking care of me more of a priority. I'm looking at vacation options; trying not to work myself into the ground.

Ok ... maybe there is no answer to this question, or maybe I should just stop trying to figure it out, but I'm struggling with the silence from the WAS. In general, I just don't get it. She is one of the most compassionate people I've ever met. She has a huge heart. It was one of the things that attracted me to her in the first place. She'll go out of her way to help anyone she comes across. She checks on people she has met for 5 minutes. When it comes to me, however, it is like I have the plague or something. Clearly, I am the source of some internal conflict for her. I would assume that the affair adds to the guilt and weirdness, even though she insists it has nothing to do with me. I'm also guessing that if there is someone else currently involved, any interaction with me is only going to make her feel worse. But seriously, how does somebody just disappear like that? Granted, I don't know what is going on in her head. She may be thinking about me. Maybe not.

Maybe disappearing is easier to deal with than actually filing for D. You don't have to actually DO anything to go silent. I would think that eventually, she's gonna have to deal with this. Or not.