Divorce looming #14

[K4D]

FaithfulH,

I thought about it briefly. But then had to realize, this is only a starting point at this point. I'm not any where down the road on this path. I have only really just begun this journey in the way I should.

I finished reading your thread. What an amazing inspiration. I do believe, not just want, but do believe that my M will be restored with time if I walk the real walk of faith with God how he wants me to be. I know that I will be tested severely. I realize that this is a road that I have gone down the wrong path on at times that is now time to change and stay straight on. And that means working on me for the greater good and truly giving the space needed for God to work with.

One thing that I have to remind myself is that Satan will use my own weaknesses and fears against me until I overcome them with faith in God. I have to be prepared and ready for that from this day forward. I also have to make sure like you say that I am in no way trying to control or manipulate anything. That gets us into a HUGE mess. It has me. I have to step back and let God take charge. I cannot step in and take charge at any point or I will be right back to square one. I don't want to be back to square one ever again.

One of many things that you said that makes a lot of sense is to not rely on people for your faith, but rely on your own faith in God. It may have been your W that said it. But its right. I think what happens in people's lives should be a continued inspiration of the power and glory of God. It should be a reminder to us to keep our faith in God and that everything is possible through him.

I admit I felt a little anxious this morning, just a bit after talking to W. I know that will come and go. I admit that my journey looks like an impossible one when I think back to everything I did and where W is right now and where I am and have been. But its not impossible. Patience, Patience, Patience, Detachment, great faith, and working on me.

Here are some additional threads we could vote on...

Walking on faith
Building my faith
Turning the corner
God is my rock
I'm a believer
Leaving the shadows behind

Also thanks MOG34, I'm with you.

Kevin