dday....not sure what to tell you other than a piece of paper that says your D is final is only that.....a piece of paper. They underlying emotion connected to the dissolving of your M is what needs to be dealt with. Until you can no longer look at your xw as "doing this to you and your kids", you will carry the emotion on your sleeve.
RESPECT is earned. She lost your respect when she left for OM. At some point, you lost her respect or she would not have done it in the first place. The point is to now RESPECT your respective roles as parents to your children. Business only. No emotion. The logistics of co-parenting take a LOT of time to organize and become comfortable with. Don't put too much pressure on yourself.
I know you say that you are done with her. That she is done with you. Are you sure about that? If you were, do you think you would still have this much emotion about what she is saying or doing?
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!