D*mn good, considering I'm trying to picture the scene and I figure you've got be typing this on a very small keyboard in your car (after the "gait") on your way to wherever it is you are going...
Multi-tasking can be a real turn-on...
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Really impressed with how you handled yourself. I am guessing H was also impressed, and that he is now finding himself sweating that a bit.
Its so great when these moments happen-when you realize that what went down feels absolutely right, for you.
Me 30 H 33 together:10 years married:5 years Separated: 1/23/09 living apart 5 mos and counting "when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on"-FDR
D*mn good, considering I'm trying to picture the scene and I figure you've got be typing this on a very small keyboard in your car (after the "gait") on your way to wherever it is you are going...
Multi-tasking can be a real turn-on...
I actually bring my computer with me whenever I leave (H has a snooping problem)...so, I pulled over, hijacked a signal and posted.
Whazzapwitdat? They get ginormous cans of mojo in at yer Costco or what?
Hooah!
Nope, after a night of sobbing, thinking, bad parenting and restless sleep (if it counts as sleep), I woke up done.
And, H did something when I saw him that just triggered a "your gone pal" feeling...and so it went. And the mojo came through.
The real mojo expenditure is going to be on delivering fearlessly for myself. I know that setting boundaries and changing the dynamic will be the catalyst for shifts in our arrangement and movement both physically and emotionally. And while it is fun to get his attention, his train is still leaving the station...
I need to be my project now more than ever.
Next two days, a reprieve. Yay, and in the spirit of your recent post on your thread, some "chill" time.
This is very inspiring stuff. There seems to be a lot of mojo on this Board now. Several people are taking postive steps. Of course it will be different for everyone since it depends on how far on the journey you are and how long you have been hanging in there. But we are getting mojified!
It has all reinforced one thing to me. We are responsible for OUR own lives and how we live them. It is not selfish to focus on ourselves and to try to "deliver fearlessly for ourselves".
BTW, you've got his atttention now. What did Ms. Alanis Morisette say about life being ironic?
This is very inspiring stuff. There seems to be a lot of mojo on this Board now. Several people are taking postive steps. Of course it will be different for everyone since it depends on how far on the journey you are and how long you have been hanging in there. But we are getting mojified!
It has all reinforced one thing to me. We are responsible for OUR own lives and how we live them. It is not selfish to focus on ourselves and to try to "deliver fearlessly for ourselves".
BTW, you've got his atttention now. What did Ms. Alanis Morisette say about life being ironic?
You know, we do seem to ebb and flow collectively here.
H texted me some juvenile comment about sex on the first date...when I stop playing ball, he'll likely find a new playmate. When you deprive a narcissist of attention, they fight for it and eventually move on.
There is too much irony to tell on here, but eventually, the story will be told.
I can't accept giving up one more moment of my attention that should be given to my kids. I know what I need to do and hopefully, tomorrow afternoon and evening, I wont be posting here if I'm doing the right thing.
In a way that might actually be a good sign! If you're rested enough nowadays that little cappy keeps you up -- you're not crashing hard at the end of the night -- then.....
Looks like it would be a one-sided conversation, but SP would be able to write a tome on it the next morning... EARLY the next morning, given the hours he apparently keeps.
New: What a Weekend
H-48 WAW-49 M-22 S-14,9 D-11 EA disc.-11/07 PA disc.-3/08 EA2?-6/08 to ?
Whazzapwitdat? They get ginormous cans of mojo in at yer Costco or what?
