She hasn't told me about the AD's. I want to know but have not asked directly yet.
I'm covering some of her expenses, but only one household. MC and Doctor bills are consuming the money really. I think I just need to sell the house and get a different job, but we'll have to accept that may not be a good thing at the moment. I'll work it out somehow.
Right now I'm plain tired. I need to recharge somehow. Stop being angry and tired and sad and worried at/towards her. I have to let that go and focus on me to recharge I think.
She's spending quality time with the kids. I am very grateful for that. Not sure that leaves much time in her life for much more, although I think she has way more free time than she expected. Now that she stops and looks around.
Time will tell. Until then, I am actively searching for a way to recharge me. Can't really do much for her except leave my phone on.
Thanks for checking in.
AJ
Funny AJ, it seems some of us ebb and flow together on here. It got pretty amped up and emotional and now there seems to be a number of us who are needing to "chill". Do it, breathe, notice the littlest details when you are outside or with kids or even alone. Sometimes just listening to your own breath can soothe...
