I like the changes that I see in my H but I am so constantly worried that I am setting myself up for another failure.

I worry that if I give a little trust that he will take a mile.

I worry that I have taken the wrong path on this and will wind up regretting the fact that I am giving it another chance.

I worry that the changes will only last until I drop the divorce papers. I still have the divorce pending and have not shut it down yet. I did not think I was ready for that.

I don't feel strong and I am in constant turmoil as to whether I am doing the right thing or not.

I am going to continue the MC and I will be looking into getting more books. I will try to locate the one that you have suggested.

I keep telling myself to just take it a day at a time and not get to comfortable just yet.

Me-31
Him-28
D1-9
D2-6
Married 5-06
Seperated 12-07
He filed 1-08
Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08
Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09
Filed for D 4-28-09
Trying to make a go of it 6-09