Didi, I do understand where you are coming from. We as women want strong men. We also want communication from them. Start the communication with him, don't let things go so far that things become unbearable for him. I wish my H had talked to me.
I have so much admiration for you admitting that the affair was a mistake and that your family is the most important thing in the world to you.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon