I believe the reason they seem "calm" about the M is they have rewritten history and are comfortable in beleiving the new story they created
somehow the delusional state seems to work for them, so in the beginning they seem peacefully numb at times
Later after a few years of replay
they seem a mess
the new R is not as perfect as they once thought

the faith is what keeps us going
to know God is in control
we the LBS will be ok
as you have read most of the LBS post after years of this they are doing well
the pain eases
we focus on our lives and
parent our kids well
peace


married 14 years
H 42
bomb 2/07 IDLYA
D final 3 /09
M ow D ow