I know I'm going to get crap for this one bc this whole process is not about what "I" want. BUT...I don't WANT those HS first time feelings for someone else, I WANT them for the father of my children, the man I ALREADY love! Ok gotta stop feeling sorry for myself - and I know you are talking about your friend's attitude and not telling me I should feel that way.
I do have to say the weird thing is...I can feel in the pits all day about this, but God is good. As soon as H pulls in the driveway, I am able to buck right up & be the most pleasant person in the world. And I actually feel happy. This is a total oxymoron, but it's pretty sad that H still makes me feel happy to just be around him.
Me 36, Him 33 M 11yrs, T 15yrs S 8, D 7 ILYBINILWY - 1/09 H moves out 10/09 D to be final SOON I HOPE!