Weighing on me may have been a bit strong but it does make me think about my sitch and the fact that I cannot get lax or allow myself to take things for granted. I must continue to work on me and do things for me and not spend any more energy on my R than I have to at this time. My W may be driving our R but she should not be in control of me and thats what your current sitch has reminded me.
I understand....you know the funny thing is, it's only now that I realize just how much focus was put in the wrong places.
What makes my sitch even more hard to understand, is that she had accepted it all the past 14 months. Maybe not 100%, because I did get the reminders, but you guys know what the past year was like.
How could I have not thought that things were at least status quo, if not progressing in her mind.
I think back to all the posts from everyone, and the mantras..."she is watching"...."she doesn't believe the changes yet"..."she still loves you"..."it takes time"..etc.
If I can at least be an example of what not to do...I guess that helps...if it helps someone else, especially some body like you who has been hanging in like I was...that would make me feel pretty good.
GAL brother...Mike has been preaching the gospel, and he is hanging in there with you. I didn't get it, and it's way too far gone now...but just so you guys know..I'm good....kind of like I was hanging on by this stretched out rubber band...it's finally snapped and I've landed...shaking off the fall, dusting myself off and getting my bearings.
Still have not made it back to my thread and I'm at work now so will try.
