I don't what to do anymore. It's been almost impossible for me to go dark with the kids home for the summer. He's had to watch them at my house and I've taken then to his house. When he's been at my house he can't wait for me to take him home and practically runs up the driveway when he gets out of the car. When I take them to his house he ignores me and acts like I'm not there while I drop them off and pick them up.
I'm going on vacation this Friday. He's going to stay at my house with the kids. I'm going to Florida to visit some friends and a mutual guy friend of ours. I've been planning this for a couple of months. I talked to my sister in law on Monday and she was telling me that it looked really bad that I was going because it looked like I was just going to sleep with my husband's best friend. I was pretty shocked at this, maybe naively so. I told her that I wanted my marriage to work and was willing to do anything to make that happen, but that he wasn't. My sister feels the same way about it looking bad because I'm still married.
I decided to talk to my husband and proceeded to break every rule in the book. I told him that I hadn't bought my ticket and asked if he wanted to go away with me this weekend. I basically poured my heart out to him and told him that I still loved him and that I didn't care what had happened between us because I wanted to be married to him. He cried the entire time I talked. I told him that I wasn't going to FL to be with anyone, I was going to have fun with friends I hadn't seen in a while and to sort things out. He said he understood.
His friends have been telling me that he paints me to be a controlling bitch that never let him do anything. They tell me that he gloats that I'm still around and that he says I make him sick to his stomach when he's near me.
I really don't know what to do. I know that I've broken the rules in a major way. I felt that I had to let him know where I stood and it all just kind of tumbled out. Here's the kicker: he told me that his cyber chick is planning on moving out here. He said there wasn't a date set, but that it was going to happen. What do I do?
What do I do?
