H`s temper has always been a problem for him. That and his inability to articulate his difficulties. So the pattern for him was always to get into a sulk and then explode to the point where I would be afraid he would hit me, I`d back down and he would stay in his sulk.
He never acknowledged his difficulties. Never sought therapy.Never considered that his parents marriage impacted on ours.It was/is all my fault.
So the fear was always there. Last October he took that even further by exploding within earshot of the kids, ripping off his jacket and tie and challenging me to a boxing match. I went to court for a protection order.He`s now angry that I did that but I have no regrets because now he is articulating his thoughts instead of lashing out.
In fact, even though things are awful in our M at this point I can see two pieces of progress-he has said more than he ever has (even if its not exactly what I want to hear!) and because of LRT and therapy I am a calmer person. In fact I`m even tranquil at this point.
I had hoped to get us to a calmer point. I`m calmer anyway, and even though H is IMHO in a crazy place maybe we are both steering to calmer waters.
No fear of me letting him teke the kids. He wouldn`t be a fit parent to them at this point and hey, they`re my joy in life!
