WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 10

[confusedinpa]

I really do appreciate all the encouragement and support that everyone has offered. I really don't know what I would have done without this site from the first bomb and its good to know that there are people who are there for me even through this bomb.

My wife called me a number of times today to see how I was doing. No discussion on the divorce or stuff, but just to see how I was doing. She is still sick so she said that I should just keep the kids all week. Which is fine by me anyway.

Once I dropped the kids off at school, I did update my resume and called a few recruiters to get them working for me. I searched the internet job boards and fired off some applications. I also called a few of my friends to start networking.

Part of my job issue is the location - I really want to stay around here for the boys. Unfortunately, there is not a lot of need for Operations VP in this area. While the pay was great, I never did enjoy the job - just too much BS. So maybe this is a time to revisit my career path. Either way, I'm hitting the "pavement"

I did pick up my 7 year old early from school so that we can play basketball together (hard to do when his little brother is around). He really enjoyed that. We went to pick up his little brother together and when we got home, we played baseball. It was a really good afternoon.

The boys did great until it was time to go to bed. My 7 year old came back down crying and asking when mommy was coming home. I told him that we are still working on some grown up stuff but no matter what we will always love them. Of course the 3 year old came down with him. I tucked them back into bed and then they came back down a few minutes later to get extra hugs. I could see the 7 year old was still really upset, so I told them that they could sleep in my room tonite. I told them that I still had to take care of a few things before I went to bed.

I did talk to my wife (she had called earlier but I missed the call). She asked how I was and then started telling me about how she was doing. Then we started to talk about what we could do to try and cut back on expenses to stretch things out till I get a job. I almost said moving back in would really help, but deep down inside, I don't want her to move back in for this reason. So we bounced things back and forth and then she said that she told her lawyer to stop doing anything else with child support or financial related to the divorce. She told me that she still wants a divorce as she still doesn't trust me with her feelings, but does want us to be able to work together to get us through this.

Fortunately, my 3 year old got up again so I got off the phone.

So I'm not sure if this is the pause I need in the divorce process to try and reconnect with my wife or what.

I do think it's odd of how she is reacting. I'm curious to hear from other WAW if there LBS had lost their job, would they have cared or what they would have done.