I wrotr you s post earlier but it got lost somehow.
I am really tired, long day at work. So I'll be quick. I think it went ok with your H. He has opened the door to your seeingeach other in the future without the need to be discussing bills etc. So, you can make good use of that and show him the new you. The card was a nice touch. It was the very least you would have done for a friend and cannot be interpreted as pursuing etc.
Now a bit of a hijack...I am still doing me. I think I have let go of the last vestiges of the grip I was keeping on this R and totally given it over to God. I do not actively think in terms of DBusting anymore e.g 180s or going dark. I am just doing what I think is warranted and what I am guided to do in the sitch as it arises. It feels right for me. While it is true that I do not control this sitch it also true that it does not control me. I have turned my focus inward and am working on me. I no longer just know that I will be happy someday. I am as happy as I can be today, all things considered. Are things perfect? No. But this is where I am and I find joy in something everyday.
Sorry, hopeful. Too tired to find my own thread. LOL.
