Mmmmmm, I have just been rereading my posting......

I have felt over the last few days like a rollercoaster; I am detaching, no I am not, yes I am etc.

After reading the above, not sure whether I am detaching.

I am keeping busy, working, socialising and resting.
But I guess I miss my old H, not eh new one that he has become.
I want to be strong, I dont want to be feeling as if I need him to make me complete and happy.

And he seems so disinterested.
Does dropping the rope/detaching mean that you close the door?
I x