wrapping up things here for move north. slightly annoyed with myself but also more just amazed at how I having trouble staying on task with the to do list. I think my reserves dealing with all the logisitical gymnastics that need executing right now are running out, hense I have a low tolerance for social interaction.
Also sad because I have been seeing friends that have been a part of my life for years, saying good bye, trying to be honest about the sitch but not rehash too much. I find myself just wanting to cancel these quick get to gethers squeezed in between meeting moving truck and going to post office to change address. I just can't hang very well right now.
Good byes, or rather I anything marking the end of something is not my forte anyway. I tend to like to leave everything with "oh don't worry, i'll see you again soon". So doing this, on top of the practical matters, and of course catalyst for all that is happening right now that looms in the background(marriage collapse) has me on major overload. Hey, I guess if you think of it as face your fear, I am like Tom Hanks in cast away..."You call this a storm...." (anyone feeling that reference)
So yeah, evidence of emotional fatigue presenting in embarrasing ways. Chronically running late and fighting the urge just to not show up (sorry movers, I wasn't at the nail salon or stopping for a morning latte, I wasn't at the storage unit until 10 minutes after our scheduled meeting time because I missed my exit while staring straight ahead at the road and saying affirmations to myself.
Quote "Wanda thought to herself, people tell themselves lies all the time, might as well make them good ones".-Sephanie Kallos
Me 30 H 33 together:10 years married:5 years Separated: 1/23/09 living apart 5 mos and counting "when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on"-FDR
