he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

nope, never thought this would happen to me...as i was walking in the door a few minutes ago, i had a flashback to when we were having work done on this house and i was coming to check on the banister guy - i was just thinking to myself, man, i was once "normal" and had a "normal" life and my husband was "normal"...its amazing isnt it? just thinking back to that time in my life, its just crazy.

i miss that life. i miss my husband from back then. and when i think about those times, it keeps me holding on, that maybe, just maybe, he will fully return.

he is definitely in mlc, i see bits and pieces of the old him and now he sorta went back into his hole but keeps a part out and attached to me.

im so day to day, if i think about the ow, i do the thought-stopping and its working.

im staying focused for now as much as possible.