Today W is out looking for apartments. It's not like I haven't seen this coming but I'm still kinda depressed and anxious about it. She is planning on moving out in July. My birthday is in July and she asked if I would prefer she move out before or after my birthday. I just gave her a weird look and said it didn't really matter. Honestly, it doesn't. Either way it's going to not be the best birthday ever. Jeez. We have to go back to the mediator on Thursday with the financial and parenting plan paperwork filled out. W hasn't done any of it yet. I've done my financial stuff. I asked her this morning if she wanted to get together to fill out the parenting stuff and she said maybe tomorrow. Ummm....well, has to be tomorrow since the appointment is Thursday morning. I just said ok. If she doesn't show up tomorrow night to do it i'll just fill it out with what I think would be fair and leave it at that. As much as this all just sucks and I wish we could work on the M I'm at the point that I just want to get the separation and move out thing over. Then she can focus on figuring stuff out and I can focus on myself and moving on if necessary. This is all just so stressful.
