Those are very kind things to say, all, but perhaps misdirected. I'm just being a selfish pr*ck.
You are anything but selfish; you have figured out who you are and how you need to comport yourself (“to roll”) in a manner that is true to you. At the end of the day, that is what we are all trying to do.
You seem to have absorbed Peaks and Valleys through some highly catalyzed osmosis process (the Ambien and Fosters mix?)… The pain in the valley may have woken you up to many truths about you and about life, but Smiley, while it’s an interesting way of framing how you choose to roll, it ain’t selfishness… and you’re outnumbered (@alive, @orange, @jaguilar, @GTFME, @gardener, @mb, @thinker and @me)… [Not to mention you sound too much like @thinker when you self-effacingly dismiss how inspiring you are to others, but I digress.]
While you may be ruing your past husbanding efforts, by becoming that Rock, your future fathering (or partnership co-parenting even if friendiness results in more)can be what it needs to be for your beautiful daughter and son (I finally got it right, mea culpa redux for the “sons” faux pas). From the outside looking in, it looks like that 25M target may have led you to find that place to roll in order to “be there” for your kids – the exact opposite of selfishness. As horrifying as this weekend was (and the guilt you carry for your role in “failing” them), they are lucky to have a father who will always care.
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