Hey Julia, Pirate fest was fun. I really was hoping my XH would dress up & hence transcending into those times & leaving todays troubles behind. Not so, so much. Although, since he looked too scruffy, I'm sure no women were eyeballing him .... now if he was in his fancy pirate garb ..... maybe.
Yes, I do feel the elephant has left the room. Don't know if I've ever heard that saying though. I guess, there is no reason to talk about a R, M or D, that is over. He is not at a healthy place to revisit that anyway. The only weird thing is typing XH instead of H. And yet he hasn't felt like my H in a very long time.
I feel ok. Relieved I'm out of limbo land. Happy, that my XH doesn't seem to be avoiding me so. Still, I would like to kick him in the arse for even choices he is making now. But those he has to deal with in time. So, I feel content, happy, a bit sad, but no one emotion has control of me.
Well, off to go & get a massage, aahhhhh!
Me39, XH45 Kids 3 dogs, 2 cats Divorced 6/4/09 Tricky thing is not how you live, but how you live with yourself. (POTC)
So I was going to wear a sexy pirate outfit, but since my XH didn't dress up, I decided to wear, what I wore yesterday, which was a more authentic pirate. (As most girl pirates didn't dress like whores - they dressed like men). smile
I was thinking I wouldn't touch that one with a ten foot pole but then what the heck.... They also went months without baths, spit and cut peoples heads off... I'll take the modern female pirate that I see around Halloween over old Bonny any day (I have to use Halloween as a reference point since I haven't experienced my first pirate festival yet)
Originally Posted By: MsMelancoly
All in all, it was a very nice day together. Six hours together!! We hadn't spent that much time together since before he left almost 2 years ago.
I am glad for this. I went into the bank with my STBX today and felt nothing. Well not exactly true. I didn't feel any true desire to be with but I always feel a urge to help or take care of, just in my nature (I think it is called co dependency) and in truth that will probablly always be there even though she doesn't really need it. I tend to think it it as caring, which sounds like you have to. I like to think it makes you a good person. Reading your threads makes me hope that some day things come together for your xH. And you know I am looking forward to you being happy 100% of the time
AR -d -AR -AR...... Funny! Doesn't look like pirate talk when you put it in print??????????
I agree, what the heck, ya got nothin too lose!! Yes, I suppose most men do prefer the sexy pirate look on women. I just didn't want to make my XH feel worse or out of place.
Ah, I am happy. Strange but at the festival my XH saw an old band member, he & I both dislike. What did my XH say, why did he come here, now my day is ruined. I said, I know, but don't let seeing him for a minute ruin your day. Still thinking about it & man, that's even letting your enemies control your hapiness.. how sad is that .... all consuming. Time to pull yourself up by your boot straps or garder straps & move on - lol
Oh, BTW I entered a drawring & won a free trip to the Bahamas! We will see how "free" this really is. So far isn't appearing to be so "free". But that's pessimistic me, for ya.
Me39, XH45 Kids 3 dogs, 2 cats Divorced 6/4/09 Tricky thing is not how you live, but how you live with yourself. (POTC)
Hey Julia, I'm well. Not much really is new with me. I've started the task of changing things back into my maiden name. I'm never going to change my name again, too much work!!
Last Sunday my XH was supposed to come over. He was a no show no call. I emailed him on Monday & it seems he had a migraine all Sunday. We emailed a few times this week. He asked if this Sunday is ok to come over. He even offered to repair my back steps! He said I could count on him, he promised. What a strange statement, since I haven't been able to count/rely on him in 2 years! I thanked him, but said maybe later this summer. (It's a big job, that cannot be done in 1 day & I'm too busy at work to take any vacation). I suggested a small job he could do & also suggested just hanging out & maybe taking a bike ride. He seemed fine with that. So we will see......
Last weekend was nice. I did yard work, hung out at home & took my 1st bike ride for the summer. So no complaints from me.
Me39, XH45 Kids 3 dogs, 2 cats Divorced 6/4/09 Tricky thing is not how you live, but how you live with yourself. (POTC)
I've started the task of changing things back into my maiden name.
So what's that Ms Euphoria? Sorry couldn't resist. Good to see you are doing well. Cheers Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
Yes, I suppose most men do prefer the sexy pirate look on women. I just didn't want to make my XH feel worse or out of place.