Tundra -

a triathlon... wow! I'm impressed! Is that something you did with your W or took up after the bomb? Either way, nice job! I like doing 5ks too... it's relaxed but social, and just feels good to raise money for a good cause.

My H and I used to ski a lot together, and then with the kids. But the last season, he went almost exclusively by himself or with friends... It really put some tension on our R. He resented me for not going. I resented him for always wanting to ski and not be at home with us... It was a big source of conflict, and maybe for you too?

I know I loved the fact my H was a ski bum when we met, and somewhere along the way that admiration turned into resentment. Sad... a big regret of mine. If I get another chance, I will really try to participate with H in his love of skiing, and get back to the trips we enjoyed. Sometimes we'd just find a room to stay in to ski another day, and he pushed me so much beyond what I thought my abilities were. I never hiked beyond the lifts before H, and finding a way down double blacks became routine. I'll never be as smooth as H was, but I know I'm a better skier and have more resolve b/c of the way he pushed me.

any who.... did you W ever ski? Living in CO, I imagine there are some outdoorsy things you've enjoyed. Maybe you could come up with something to do with the kids and invite W along if she wants. Something that is relaxing and fun. Just a thought.

The raft trip is this coming weekend. My friend stopped by tonight to give me details and look at my broken gate. I am really excited! I don't know many people going, but it's a trip just for me! No kids, no H, just me being me like I used to be.

Hope all is well for you, Tundra. It is good your W is still in the house. If you're having backslides most days, challenge yourself to go a day or two without one. I know it's hard... but you can do it!