I don't know. This whole thing is getting so weird. We're entering separation negotiations regarding the kids custody, and my W wants to include a clause that allows her to move away in two years and renegotiate the custody arrangement. We're currently at 50/50, and I'll never agree to anything less. My heart is alreday broken that I can only see my kids half the time. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.
Our transition yesterday was just awful when my W dropped the kids off. My daughter was clinging onto my W, sobbing. My younger daughter was saying "Mommy, why don't you just stay here. You can sleep here." The my crying daughter chimed in with "Yes mommy, sleep here." My W just plainly stated "My home and my bed are at my house now." I tried to cheer up my daughter by playing a song on guitar for her, but that did nothing. We decided I would take the girls out for a while to distract them, so we got them buckled into the van. My daughter was slumped forward in her seat sobbing. My W hugged her for a while, then walked away and got into the car. I got into the driver's seat and went to start the van, but I just couldn't handle my daughter sobbing, so I got back out and went around and held her. My W was in the car in the driveway watching, and although my back was to her, I could hear her slowly back down the driveway and drive away. One of the saddest scenes ever :-(
For a while I thought my W was starting to come out of the fog just a little, but now she seems like the complete alien pod again. Cold as ice, and completely selfish. Where did my W go? Does she have no heart left at all? Oh, I'm sure she was crying as she drove away, but I'm just as sure she was blaming me the whole time. I made her have the A and leave.
Don't know what's going on with the plans for Disney. I doubt she'll end up going. She mentioned she might just want to take the kids to the beach while I'm gone visiting my parents.
