idk, you're up against a lot, but one step, one day (sometimes one minute) at a time and you will make progress. I know how you feel about finding db sooner. I sure wish I found it sooner (I stumbled across it 6 mos after W left), but I found it. And so did you. That's what's important.. And so far, I don't think any S's have dropped the Bomb and a copy of DR at the same time.
Crash-coursing helped me immensely: read, read, read. Read these posts. Read DR, What Works Thread, Film Study Thread, the books you see mentioned on this forum, Go back and read this forum from months back. Find the many, many common threads, axioms and wisdom and realize they're common and prevalent for a reason: they're true.
I hope I'm not sounding strident, here, just you-can-do-it insistent. I've been here only 2 weeks and it has changed my life (and my sitch). Literally.
Get going. We're all here.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
