perhaps you should just start with focusing on the counseling.
don't worry about what the guy you see did in school or how random his job process seems to be or what you would need to do to follow in his footsteps. You can do all that later.
Take this in steps. First, counseling for you, that's how you got here right? Counseling first. Commit to going regularly and just follow along with what he asks. Go home and think about things. Go back the next time and tell him what you've thought about. Listen to what he says, answer the questions, think some more, follow directions, and be patient.
Good luck.
Me 30 H 33 together:10 years married:5 years Separated: 1/23/09 living apart 5 mos and counting "when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on"-FDR
