Thank you for your response. A part of me wants so bad to believe that having a sex life with H again is getting us back on track. However, I also wonder if the OW is in the back of his mind. Today he actually asked if it would change things if he 'met' her. (OW lives 1500 miles away)
I feel like a pathetic fool. I never in my wildest dreams thought he would do this to me. I don't understand how he could just give up 17 years of marriage.
I can't sleep, eating at times is difficult - which is actually a blessing in itself as I need to lose weight anyway. But living in turmoil...the not knowing...the insecurity. It justs gets to be unbearable at times. What scares the he!! out of me is it's only been 12 days. How on earth I am going to last months or even years like this?
At times I am totally together... then there are times like now I am a mess.
Me: 39 H: 39 S: 15 M: 18 years Bomb: 6/3/09 H moved out: 10/15/09 H moved back:5/30/10
