thanks for writing to me. to the men folk, thanks for infiltrating the estrogen fortress :-) your Y chromosome presence and perspective is welcome.
I am divorced, I see that. And I am still me. Still not 100% me, like Smiley said, but still pretty darn good. Not fully comfortable here, but working to be. I know i've held back. I hated the idea of H. and I becoming strangers to each other. But its happened, and I need to stare it in the face and not shy away from knowing it. Even more, I think I need to welcome it.
I've always liked the saying, "My barn having burned to the ground, I can now see the moon"-?
When we are young and invincible, we have no idea about things we are drawn to but can't fully understand. Perhaps I tought I understood the above saying, but maybe now its the time to really learn.
I want to find the light, for my self. I like that Smiley, thank you. That has to be my only goal.
I think I was on a roll for a few weeks, in a way, but got derailed by this stupid dance H. and I do over finances. I need to recognize that emotionally, I am not detatched enough to converse with him, over anything. Email only, and strict 3 line limmit. As I'm sure you've noticed, I get chatty with my typing...too much.
thank you guys again.
Me 30 H 33 together:10 years married:5 years Separated: 1/23/09 living apart 5 mos and counting "when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on"-FDR
