SO, Aussie man calls me last night to tell me has had this fabulous offer to move to the Philippines for the bank he is working with to do some wonderful thing...and that Australia is fairly close...like 3-4 hours away...
I was bummed by that fact. I mean a great opportunity for him and his career...but I feel like I am ....well, maybe I am just a a relationship leper or something.
I have been feeling down lately and I am not sure why. Post -divorce stuff or something...there are times when I want someone to hold me...physically hold me...like my XH used to do...and not want anything...just hold me and kiss my hair and tell me that they love me.
Is that silly or what? Have no idea why I am feeling like this...I mean, I feel ready for a relationship...a boyfriend if you will...which is why I started DATING.
It seems however that I date these men for a short time and then something happens...is this how things go???? I mean, in the process of dating, do things go south after a month or a month and a half????
I really have no clue...
I feel alone...and I try to be still and listen...but I am not always successful.
I have no idea sometimes what I am doing ...what my purpose is...I feel like I am floundering...
I hope this passes and is just some part of inner enlightenment and stuff...
Hi Vali,
I can so relate to all of the above!
I hope you are feeling better this week. (((HUGS)))
