All I really have to say is "I know"....I believe you hit the nail on the head, and my thinking the past couple of days has become much more clear.
Your words echo most of what has been going through mind lately.
In some respects that makes me pause with regrets and the should have, would have, could have thoughts, but at least it was a good year...regardless of what she says now.
I still find it difficult to type the words "deal breaker" and make it 100% firm in my heart, but my mind is one step ahead I think.
Most thoughts lately have been about the logistics of all this and the next step....her future reactions and words...but even if it were possible to come back from something like this, the lightness, the closeness, the friendship has faded badly over the weekend.
Even a 180 from her now....how could I handle that...how would I handle that?...not even something I want to dwell on.
My goal now is to remain calm and polite. She knows what she has done and I still know more than she thinks, so the next step will be for her to decide.
Like Bill told me...I never asked for an end to this marriage.
Even though I probably didn't handle this year correctly, DB speaking, I have treated her nothing but love, kindness and respect.
No, that can never make up for her unhappiness with me and the marriage years prior, and that was never my intention.
She no longer has the option of stepping out of this and changing her mind. Whether that really matters to her I guess I will never know, but I made it very clear to her over the weekend.
I will keep you posted.
Also, if anyone out there believes in karma....my wife lost her phone over the weekend and has been extremely limited in her capability for contacting BF.
