Thank you Snodderly, glamgirl, Vali and nlt for posting to me and your compliments.
I was doing quite alright last week and did a few fun things. I also have a new "hobby", i.e. I am collecting jokes – LOL. Despite all of this I was depressed again today. Nothing worked out the way I would have liked it to. And on top of it summer just doesn't want to arrive. In June the weather was hot for only two days and afterwards we have had storms in the evenings. So swimming is out of the question for me since I find it way too cold.
One of the guys I met the week before last only texted me twice briefly last week and I haven't heard from him anymore. I do hope he will get back together with his wife; however, I would appreciate it if he let me know what is happening.
XH wrote again asking me to get something done which I did. Two days later he wrote that he dreamt about me and in the dream I gave him back some of the money. - He is still trying to manipulate me to do it. I will just ignore it but it still makes me really sad. A few hours later he seemed quite normal again and wrote to thank me for doing what he asked me to do.
Vali, thanks for "validating" – LOL. At least I am not the only one who has a mess at home! I am like you at the moment. I would also like to just be with somebody who I like and be hugged. I noticed that if I finally meet someone I like (which is 1 in a million!) then he doesn't like me. Such is life and I cannot change it but it still depresses me.
At least I still GAL. I got to know a few people with whom I go to openings of exhibitions at art galleries. We use the French word "vernissage" for it. Then I got to know a lady who organizes a benefice evening with classical music and other performances at the end of the week and she asked me if I and some of my GFs would like to come. On the week-end I will have another family event. So this will keep me busy and hopefully, I will get distracted enough to not get depressed again.
I noticed that on the dating platform I use there are often the same people advertising again and again, and I am glad that I keep track of the ads I already replied to. I guess I would constantly reply to the same people if I didn't – LOL. At the moment "I am lying low" and don't reply to any ads but am waiting for "newcomers" to arrive.
The situation with my neighbour is not so tense anymore and I will try to keep it that way.
