After we had our last fight, She decided sort of seemingly out of the blue that our marriage is worth saving. So many times I thought she had made that decision and this fight was so bad.
I had a friend that had been just cool and there for me the day I got back. It is foolish and immoral but I had sex with her, partly as a panacea to feel better and to force my spirit to LET GO of my marriage.
The next day however the wife calls and swears she wants to reconcile. I didn't tell her what I did because I want my wife back but when she asked, with a bit of hesitation, I told her.
She had told me before that she is not like me and that she is glad I can forgive her but she does not think she can forgive such a slight if done to her.
