d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

Emotional weekend. H acts like everything is fine with us. We are still buddies in his book. I noticed him texting me small stuff like, when he was done with work on Saturday he said, be home soon. (he really had to pickup D4) He actually mowed the lawn for me so I could take a shower. When he dropped D4 off last night, he had to leave shortly later because he was going to a friends house. (he used to just say I'm going out) funny, now he actually tells me where he is going. (Knowing him lately, he just tells me that when really he's doing something else -- he's been very sneeky in the past). Well so he left, I just said have a good time with "your friend". He asked me if he could text me if he got bored. I said that's fine but not after 10, I'm going to bed. He even gave me a big hug and a kiss on cheek and my neck (my weak spot). I returned the kisses and thanked him saying thanks for everything. (he mowed my lawn on saturday for me and fed the cows).

He knows I have to go to the Lawyer today (he saw on calender) but he never said a word about it. Lawyer said if I can get him to sign it, great. I just don't have it in me to hand him the marital agreement and say sign if you agree. I'd start crying.

I'd love to bring up our R to see where his thinking is but in 2 weeks it's over. He has had every opportunity of stopping this, but is afraid to. Why are they so afraid??? It must be his own guilt.

I really hate this !!