Fire's burning out...just smoldering

[blindsided1]

Thanks SMW. I know that he is a broken mess. So, why does it hurt so much to watch him to pretend to be a family with OW and her kids. This is what I can't seem to get my head around. If I think about it, I tell myself that he can't really "love" OW all that much if he is still asking me for sex on a weekly, if not more, basis. I know HE is not the type of man I would want to be married to. I would always be afraid that he was cheating on me....ALWAYS. So, why does it still hurt that he didn't choose ME & Kendall? He chose someone who bought him, trapped him by getting pregnant, which is what she does.

If I really sit down and logic it out....I know the two of them are living in a fantasy world. She talks about how wonderful he is...he cooks, he cleans, he takes care of her and the kids...blah blah blah. Maybe they should get married...because once he feels "safe" the real HIM will come out. He'll stop being Mr. Perfect and start being Mr. Leach.

So, if any men are reading this....tell me, again, if you loved some woman and were going to marry her, would you still be constantly and consistantly trying to have sex with your STBX wife? I just don't get it.

I know I'm harping...but, my Mom was saying that she thinks the whole "family" thing...the pictures, the party for K with people who don't even know her, my H cooking and OW posting how wonderful he is on FB, my H even made my daughter's birthday cake. He DOESN'T cook. At least he didn't when he was with me. So, my Mom says that she believes that both of them are putting up this fake front because 1) OW wants more than anything to be married and have a "family"...even if it is a fake one, even if she destroyed someone elses to get it, she wants it and any cost. That could also mean she doesn't really even care that it's my H. It could have been anyone who was willing to marry her. Makes a lot of sense. And, 2) My H has to prove to everyone that he made the right decision...see I have my family, my house, a new wife, a new life, I'm happy. It's better that I walked out on my pregnant wife...look how much happier "I" am.

A$$holes.