Wow, honestly, on the contrary. I think I feel used when I pretend to like someone who is acting like an a**hole and I am constantly striving to see the good in him and be non-judgmental. However, when I do pull it off, I tend to get a lot better of him.
I woke up this morning wanting to send him an email that says "Honestly, I am still heartbroken about what is happening to us and our family. Not about the past but the present and the future."
It is so hard to make plans for Father's Day etc and just be pleasant and glib when it matters so much to me.
