I miss being able to freely browse this forum now that H took the computer. Hopefully mine will ship soon... One of the most helpful things for me has been to get on here and vent (right now it's on a daily basis, sorry :)) - and that is what is keeping me, I think, on course with not unloading on H when he comes over in the evening...

Yesterday I didn't get any calls from H - he was busy at work all day. I did call him once to see how his day was going and left a voice mail. He called me back when he was leaving and on his way over to the house.

He was just really tired, and sat on the couch and watched whatever movie was on until it was time for DD to go to bed, and then he went home... said he was just going to take a shower, drink a beer, and go to sleep. Probably the best thing for him, since he wakes up around 5:30 am to get ready for work and it would have been around 9 by the time he got home.

I try not to bother myself with wondering what he's doing when he goes to his apartment, who he might be seeing, where he might be going. Unproductive. I will take him at his word - he has always been honest and forthcoming about everything for the past ten years - I will take him at his word that he wants this to work out. That he just needs his space for a bit.

Every day that goes by I do feel more indifferent to him... if we get back together that's going to be a hard obstacle to overcome... Plus, all of "our" friends think he's a huge tool for leaving while I'm pregnant.

Me - 30, H - 32
T - 10, M - 6, D - 1
DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2
on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10)
Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011