thanks orchid.

I really had thought that I was detaching well. I should have known that the growing anxiety I felt in the few days before the possibility of seeing him when I headed back into to town was an indication that I needed to stay dark at all costs. I wish I hadn't shown my vulnerability to him again.

I like your idea of moving far away (physically and emotionally) from their erratic behavior. I really was focused on that, then somehow got off track today. big time.

ah well. good night, thanks for your kind words and thoughts.

Last edited by traveldane; 06/15/09 04:25 AM.

Me 30
H 33
together:10 years
married:5 years
Separated: 1/23/09
living apart 5 mos and counting
"when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on"-FDR