Divorce looming #14

[K4D]

As far as the A B C question, it could end up being a combination of both B & C. I would certainly fill up the tire. And if they couldn't afford a tire and I had the money, I would pay for it. If they did have the money, I would just fill it up.

As far as I, Kevin am... I really need to think on this. I am hoping the counseling will help me figure this one out. That is a tough question to answer. I wasn't very focused in school. I dropped out in high school. Then I got my GED and went to college. Then I chose to quit and be with W and we both worked from there to build our life. I was ambitious at the beginning of my career with insight from her showing me why I should be. But then as the years went on and I did better, I got complacant. I felt like we were doing fine financially and I was satified money wise between what we were both bringing in. I can't say that I really excelled at anything in school. I don't feel like I am as smart or as quick as other people on things. I have never really ever been able to organize well or take notes at all and also follow along with what is going on. I really need help in organizing and taking notes. That could be a good class to take.

Let me think on who Kevin is.

Tomorrow is my counseling appointment.

Today W and D11 were on their way to pick up D7 and had a tire shredded on the interstate. W calls me to tell me about it. I said do I need to head up there, obviously concerned. She said no she is handling it and she took care of it. Then later on she sends me a text telling me they are ok and back on the road. Ok, I'm glad they are safe and everything is ok. But I couldn't for the life of me figure out why she called me if she didn't need any help. Then later she tells me she called to just let me know incase they were running behind. Ok.

Tonite I go over to W's house for dinner and to get the kids for the week. We made seafood and talked all evening and joked and helped each other get the kids ready and make dinner and clean up. I'm thinking what a great evening it was. And it really was. Well, of course, W tells me she has a "friend" coming back from Santa Fe that is taking her out for her birthday dinner and she is booked all week. Right away I know who this friend is. Its original OM. She slept with him for his birthday and I'm pretty sure he is returning the favor. She always says a friend when it is him and he is the one that travels for business. I don't say anything though.

As I pack up the car and get the kids in, W hugs each of them and tells them she loves them and goodbye. I close D7's door and turn around to tell W goodbye and she has already started walking off. I was like, dang. I was fooling myself thinking we had a great night. I told her good night and thanks for dinner she said good night and went in and closed the door.

Ya, the usual, I thought about it the whole way back home. The girls were arguing tonite and W tells me she is glad to send them to me for the week. Apparently they argued all week. They have been doing this for a while now. I am trying to figure out how to control it. But I couldn't believe W said that. I love having my kids. I know it was only out of frusturation. But still. I would never say that. And she said it in front of them. I know she loves them and cares about them. But she sure is different now. She just seemed more than happy to be rid of them for a week.

Yes, I know yall are going to come back at me with the coparent thing. And thats what it is for her and nothing more. I recognize that.

So who is Kevin? Maybe I will be able to answer that tomorrow after counseling. I will give it some good thought tomorrow as it is late tonite.

Kevin