Man Overboard

[StrgMarvelousWmn]

I had a rough night emotionally last night and ended up going to bed at midnight, completely spent--so much so that i did not hear the alarm going off to get up for church. S17 eventually came upstairs at 9am (when we should have been at church) to check on me cause her and BFF were worried about me.

I got up, D17 got the littles breakfast, and I started building trays for a potluck wedding reception this after noon for a friend from church. The littles and I left for church for the 11am service, I worked in D6's room, and then we attended my friend's wedding after.

My friend looked absolutely gorgeous! This is a second marriage for both--firsts both ended in divorce and I know friend's was a result of infidelity by her H. SIDEBAR--Ironically, her XH came to her around 6 months ago to say he made a mistake, but she was already engaged and was not willing to go back there again. She told me she told him that he had made no changes, had expressed no willingness to change, and she was happy with where her life was going.

Their ceremony was absolutely beautiful and so touching. I cried again through the whole thing--heck every woman in the church, and even a few of the men, were crying. Both the bride and groom are very active in the church and good friends to many. I am thrilled for both of them and so happy that they have found each other. They are both very supportive of my stand for my marriage and the bride expressed her regret that DH did not make it ( I did not tell her why) and that she hoped to meet him in the near future.

Tonight was a lazy night. I need to do some school work, but after all of the emotions of this weekend, I am not up to it.

Oh, another sidebar--apparently my cousin who is getting married next weekend called DH to see if he was coming to her wedding. She was apparently not to nice to him, even though she and he were great friends. She essentially told him he screwed up, he knows he screwed up, and he needs to either live with the consequences or fix it. She also told him that she loved him, he was always welcome to visit her, but his GF was not welcome. She said he kind of shamefully laughed and said he would never do that to her.

He was still on the fence about attending her wedding, too.

I honestly believe that OW freaked about DH coming to niece's wedding and she made the trip here to force him to pick between family and her. Unfortunately for him, he chose wrong. I can honestly say that last night I hated my DH, today I merely pity him for all the bad choices he has made and continues to make. Despite it all, though I still love him. How jacked up is that?

New Nephew is disgusted with DH. Nephew is also Navy and says how is he supposed to respect DH and his rank when DH's actions are so out of place with the core values. Wants to call DH's command bot won't out of respect to me. I am so blessed to have so much family that loves and supports me.

Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~
SMW