I'm embarrassed to admit that I think I get caught up in our whole story, in the idea of it coming full circle, of "this has to be happening for a reason, so we can come out stronger". Like this is some epic thing...ridiculous.
Oh ya, I see the movie in my mind...sometimes it does go that way but unless some major work is done, it falls apart. My H left once 6 years ago and he came back after 5 weeks and we were so grateful and really relished in the happy ending and now, here we are because the fundamental issues didn't change.
I hate to say, as blessed as I feel to have my kids, they keep me connected to H and the interactions are so loaded. Setting boundaries impacts my kids...it is really tough.
You have plenty of time. And, you will love again.
I don't remember, did you get counseling to deal with your loss?
