Stuck, Sandi and all, I just read a book that helped me articulate this (and no, I don't agree with all of it, but that is okay and THAT is part of the point of the book. Being okay with not agreeing on all of it...)
But it is about faith and how we have it in our lives and how we use it or misuse it, etc. and it is what got me to thinking about how I've used shame or guilt wrongly.
So, the book is called "Blue Like Jazz" and I HIGHLY recommend it. It will help ALL of your r's so yes, your M will improve too. Or at least whatever is left of it if you are on these boards. H and I just read it on our vacation and it touched us and troubled us, in a good way, deeply. Food for thought and a lot about forgiveness. Which is a tough one if you never saw it modelled in your home as I didn't growing up. Forgiving is something we have to LEARN to do and it does not always come naturally.
Like I said, food for thought & the book helped me to "get it". So yeah, I would recommend it to anyone who is wondering where God fits in all of this. And how to forgive or view forgiveness. J-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016