Since my H left a month ago, I started going to Mass on Sundays again. I've always believed in God, but got pretty burned out with Catholicism growing up. I guess I'm more spiritual than religious. Tears came to my eyes this morning when the priest was talking about being non-judgemental and kind to others and making someone else's life better. So often we are most judgemental and unkind to those we love the most. When I got home I just started bawling like nobody's business.
I actually felt a little better after my big cry, like it kind of cleanses my body of troubled thought for awhile.
My MIL sent a nice email today. She said she cares and thinks about me a lot and still considers me a part of her family. I actually felt more confident after reading her letter. My MIL and I were always close. She also mentioned that she's going to have my stepson tomorrow. Would I be backsliding if I called her and arranged to go to her house to see stepson or should I just continue detaching and going dark?
Me 40 WAH 43 T 4 years M 10 months stepson 9 H left 1 month ago No D filed
